It seems so long ago that the proverbial rug was snatched out from under me as the market crashed in 2007. As a financial advisor and teacher of Biblical financial principles it was quite humbling to go from six-figure income to close to zero. To move from full IRA’s, cash reserves and little debit to none of the former and too much of the later. To go from seemingly knowing it all, having it all together and planned out for the next 10 years to not knowing how a bill was going to get paid. I had been humbled. Humbled where I didn’t even realize I needed humbling. I was serving faithfully and giving generously beyond the tithe, doing everything you read about in the good book.
Everything but….following that still small voice. Everything but surrendering my plans for God’s greater plan. But the voice was just a whisper and the whisper didn’t seem to be in complete sentences. Write, speak, coach. A planner by nature I needed more info than that to begin. Give me a vision. Give me the 3, 5, 10 year plan. Give me the details of how to achieve it and I’ll gladly go. But God said No. Do what you know to do write, speak, coach. Seek me for all that you don’t know. The vision will come. But the 3, 5, 10 year plan and the details I can’t give you all that. If you have all that and begin to accomplish it on your own, pride will return and my plans will not prevail. No, you must continually walk humbly with me. He was faithful. He did provide the vision. In the journey of the last few years I write about the vision in my latest book Created to Lead: A fresh perspective for women seeking God’s path to their purpose and their highest potential. The vision was to launch the National Association of Christian Women Leaders (NACWL) which I did in November 2014. No 3, 5, 10 year detailed plan given just 3 tasks I’ve been charged with unite women – grow leaders – fight injustice. Do I know what that means, what the details are. No. Do I trust God that he will fulfill his plan. He promises just that in Psalm 138:8
The LORD will fulfill his purpose for you.
So not knowing. I walk humbly with God wondering where this road will take me, whether it’s worth it or will I only look foolish, finish poor and forgotten. Those and many other doubts when God decides to give me a glimpse of his great love.
It’s quite a detailed story but I’ll share with you the highlights. I connected recently with an organization I had never heard of – Christian Life Missions. They followed me and NACWL on twitter. Since I had never heard of them I asked what brought them to me. Through a series of tweets, emails and concluding with a phone call I learned they were interested in partnering with me to write for their organization. It’s a very cool opportunity in and of itself but it gets even better. (It just amazes me how personal and tender God’s shows his love for us).
So let me back up a minute so you can understand what I share next. When it comes to influencers of my life it really has come from the books I’ve read and the Bible studies I’ve done. In addition to the Bible my mind and life have been transformed by the likes of John Maxwell, Zig Ziglar, Beth Moore, and Joyce Meyers just to name a few. Yet as much as these have influenced me I can point back to two books that have been a catalyst for me discovering my purpose and genuinely lighting a fire in my bones for Christian Women in Leadership. One of those books was written by Lee Grady titled Ten Lies The Church Tells Women: How the Bible Has Been Misused to Keep Women in Spiritual Bondage. He has written so many books about women, the injustices we face and the truth that sets them free. He is such a proponent of women that after witnessing the atrocities of babies being thrown in the trash because they were female in third world countries that he has founded a ministry to continue his support of women titled The Mordecai Project. While I am not the celebrity groupie type, I am so very thankful for his work and the influence it has played on my life. So thankful that He chose to listen to the still small voice of God.
So back to my writing assignments for Christian Life Missions. Christian Life Missions as it turns out is a affiliate of Charisma Magazine. Lee Grady was the Editor of Charisma Magazine for quite sometime before his writing and ministry took his life a different route. He still writes a blog for them called Fire in My Bones. His influence runs through the organization to their affiliate Christian Life Missions. He also happens to be a board member for Christian Life Missions and he writes for them along with Alveda King (niece of Martin Luther King, Jr and civil rights activist herself).
When I pieced it all together I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. God has blessed me with the honor of writing on the same website as Lee Grady!! How amazing is the love of the father that he lavishes on us!! I am so honored. So humbled that I get this opportunity.
My first article is up at Christian Life Missions and you can read it by clicking on the image below.
Hungry for more
The journey has been painstaking at times. There have been many tears shed, possessions lost, relationships tried. The valley was a lonely place even though I knew God was there I found myself doubting more times than a person of strong faith should have. Yet as I look back to see how God humbled me, how honored I am with the opportunities that he has placed before me I can truly say I am only hungry for more of him.